So, I weighed myself this morning and the scale said 265. I stepped off and then back on...The scale said 270. Stepped off again & back on, it said: 260. I suppose I need a new scale. One of better quality *sigh* So, I'm not sure how much I weigh at this point in time. I think I'm going to buy a new scale tomorrow.

Justin has dropped out of the challenge. He's a little sick right now, so that may be why he can't handle this right now. I hope he starts to feel better and I hope that I don't get sick.

So, I've been playing around w/ FitDay.com & I've concluded that the site hates me. You see, I'll enter into the nutritional facts what the label on the product says, but then the site comes back and says that my calories or whatnot are off. Yeah, it hates me. Anyone have an insite about this site? If so, does it work alright for you? I believe if it worked it would be a great site!

Here's to tomorrow. Cheers! ~Emzi

Just like the title of this entry...I'm ready for a new beginning. Tomorrow marks day #1 of my husband and my official weight loss journey. We will weigh in tomorrow morning and we'll start our diet regiment.

We will be following the same diet as that of a gastric bypass patient. Click here to be taken to the diet regimen that we will be following. If anyone happens to have any extra information to share I would absolutely appreciate it! :)

After taking my husband to work this afternoon I went ahead and made up our sugar-free gelatin and pudding. I put them in these nifty little 4 oz containers (made by Rubbermaid) that we found at the store. I made sugar-free butterscotch and cheesecake pudding & sugar-free lime and cherry gelatin. I'm quite excited about the cheesecake pudding -- I have a weakness for the stuff!

I am hoping to lose at least 2 pounds a week. If I can manage to lose the wanted 2 pounds a week then it would take me around 57 weeks to reach my goal weight of 150 pounds. Fifty-seven weeks is approximately 1 year, 1 month and 1 week. That seems like an eon away! I can do this!

Until next time...I am going to go stress about something...I don't know what it is yet, but there is usually something to be stressed about! ~Emzi

...a fair success! I only ate one plate of food and then snacked on veggies and cheese the rest of the day! And, get this...I didn't have any dessert! I was so proud of myself! :) I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!!

Bah, it's Wednesday already!! This week is flying by...

I have to get up early tomorrow morning to make dumplings for the family dinner that starts at 12 o'clock-noon. The dumplings themselves don't take much time at all to make, but I just want to make sure that I get them in the crock-pot in enough time so that they have time to sit and soak up enough broth. Plus, after letting them sit the broth becomes thicker and yummier due to the flour.

Anywhoo -- Tomorrow I am going to try and limit myself to the amount of sweets and other bad things that can be ingested. Believe me though, I will help myself to a heafty helping of turkey and stuffing though! They probably aren't the best for me, I know, but I suppose it might be better than a whole pumpkin pie (ok, so I really wouldn't eat a WHOLE pumpkin pie b/c really, I don't like it all that much and plus, after one little sliver I'm done w/ the whole thing...). Oh, and can't forget the relish tray! Yuh-um! I will definately be eating lots of veggies and cheeeeeese!! I friggin love cheese!

My List of Food to take to Thanksgiving Dinner:

• Potato Salad
• Dill Pickle Spears
• Colby Jack Cheese (Yuh-um!)
• Cucumbers
• Fruit Punch (For J and me to drink)
  

Ok, I believe this is all for now...Until next time! ~Emzi

P.S. I woke up this morning and it was friggin' snowing! Bah, not good! :(

So, it's the beginning of a new week. Every week I tell myself that it's all going to change and I'm going to watch what I eat. But it totally never happens. If I know myself correctly, I'll bomb out of this by tonight. I just need to watch what I eat until I can start my new-found diet.

But, on a good note...I totally managed to lose 2 pounds since last Monday. I am not sure how it happened, but it did. Maybe it's from cutting out the majority of my soda intake. I have heard that if you stop drinking soda all together you'll lose 10 pounds. *sigh* Wouldn't that be a miracle!?

Thanksgiving is 3 days away and I have to make food to take to the family dinner. I signed up to bring my Homemade Dumplings (mother-in-law's recipe) and cookie bowls (sugar cookie bowls filled with french vanilla pudding). So, I'm thinking that there will be some pretty heavy eating going on this thursday. Gah! Wish me luck...

So, I just watched NBC's new movie The Poseidon Adventure (it was an okay movie, I suppose) and I totally scarfed some popcorn, soft pretzels w/ cheese and drank a black cherry Smirnoff! Bah, when is this ever going to end? I've got to do something & quick!

I'm sorry that I haven't updated in a few days. I have been busy with work and what not. I will try and do better with updating. Although, updating more often would probably be more beneficial to me in the long run anyway.

I have been toying with the idea of having some sort of weight loss surgery (whether it be Lap-Band or Gastric Bypass) for quite some time. I almost feel like this is my only way out of my obesity. I do, however, understand the risks in doing this and therefore, I do not think that WLS is for me.

Well, what else is there for me? I've tried the low-carb thing, but I just can't do that for more than a month or so at a time...On the low-carb diet I feel like I'm eating myself to a heart attack.

The other day I was searching for weight loss blogs and I came across one blog in particular that really caught my eye. It is about a man who is following the diet plan of a typical gastric bypass patient. This man has lost 139 pounds on this diet and he is a true inspriation to me. Through his blog I had learned that it is simply mental. Don't we all just have an addiction to food? It's clearly mental...I have an addiction to food!

I want to try this diet. Hey, if I was going to have Gastric Bypass I would have had to follow this diet anyways. Why not try it without all of the cutting and stapling of my insides? Does seem like it could hurt too much. lol No pun intended.

For anyone interested in checking out the journal in which I think I may have found a new light...You can view it here: Almost Gastric Bypass. I also have a link to this blog on my side panel titled "My Inspriation." And I have a link to my diet as well...It is titled "My Diet" of course! :)

Justin, my husband, wants to join in on this diet. I'm glad that he wants to join me, but I'm not sure how long he'll last. Although, then again...How long will I last?! I've just got to keep telling myself that it's only mental...It's only mental...ONLY MENTAL!

Well, this is all for now! Until next time my Darlings!

So, I totally didn't watch what I ate yesterday. I suppose I didn't eat a whole lot of bad things, but I did have a Blended Raspberry Chai w/ a shot of white chocolate. Oh, it was so good...I couldn't resist making myself one to eat w/ my grilled cheese sandwich (2 slices sourdough + 3 slices american cheese, less than 1 oz. olive oil & then grilled on the panini press) & ~1-1/2 cups of chicken noodle soup. I suppose it could have been worse.

So far today all I have eaten is a bacon, egg, & cheese sandwich (5 slices of bacon, 3 fried eggs, 1 slice of american cheese between 2 slices of white bread -- sounds really bad when I write it down X_x) and then a few spoonfuls of marshmallow fluff...It's great in hot chocolate, but even better by the spoonful! Egh, it's so awful. Oh, and a 23.5 oz can of Arizona Green Tea (totally YUMMY!).

I've been looking at L.A. Weight Loss as a possibility to helping me in my weight loss journey. I have read a few journals in which L.A. Weight Loss was used & great results were obtained. I'm still a bit sceptical...but I think that it's only because I'm so unsure of myself. I suppose I should just go into the center and check it out...There is a center less than 5 miles down the road from my apartment. I should just go in. *repeat to self* Just go in...Just go in.

Why am I so chicken? I'm afraid of what people might think of me...But in all actuality...Everyone there is going to be there for the same reasons as me. I am embarrassed w/ the way I look.

The year 2007 marks the 5th year after my high school graduation. I intend on going to the reunion and I intend on weighing less than I did in high school (240ish around graduation). Now, I just need the determination to do it. I know, I just contradicted myself...It's nothing new to me.

This is all. ~Emzi

Today embarks my reentry into the dieting world. My eating habits this week will probably not be as healthy as they should be...Only for the fact that I did not buy groceries for my so-called "diet."

Lunch: small amount of beef arm roast and 1-1/2 cup potatoes (I did a roast w/ potatoes in the crock-pot yesterday for dinner. YUH-UM!)

Dinner: I'll be eating at work tonight, so I'll most likely have a small salad. A salad sounds good!

I will keep you posted about tonight's meal. ~Emzi

Well, I am back from my temporary Hiatus...If you can even call it that. My husband and have just gotten the internet back & I am looking forward to be able to continue blogging.

It has been almost 3 months since I last posted. Since then I have gained back 7 pounds. I will admit...I have not been watching what I eat and whatnot like I should be. Seven pounds is a lot better than 15. Although, that is definately not a good excuse...I shouldn't be making up excuses at all, but I do. Do I somehow think that an excuse will make everything better? I do suppose that everyone looks for something or someone else to blame their problems on...

I believe that blogging about my weight loss (or there lack of) helps me to control myself better. I'm not sure if seeing all of the facts written down makes it all that more real is what helps though...I don't know what it is.

This is all for now. I am starting my weight loss journey right back up where I left off and hopefully this time it will go somewhere! ~Emzi