Today's weigh-in: 263.6 lb.

I totally suck at this right now. I've backslid the last two weeks with gains instead of losses. In the last two weeks I've gained 3.8lb. I am so ticked at myself right now.

The gain isn't due to AF because I haven't had her since August & who knows the next time I'll see her. That part of me is probably a lost cause...it'll probably never work properly.

The gain is due to lack of dicipline. Allowing myself to have that extra snack. Or while I'm at work allowing myself to have that Raspberry-Banana Smoothie (skim of course, but that doesn't do much for it...it's still horrible for you!) or luscioius chocolately Cocoa Royale(skim again of course, but it still doesn't do anything for that one either).

I just suck at this. Better yet I just suck at life all together.

The first of the year it's hardcore low-carb/low-fat for me! ...I have to do this! If I want to lose weight and have a baby I have to do this...I have to.

I'm backing out of the Christmas challenge. How could I be so stupid to think that I could even possibly loose 15 lbs by Christmas? ...I suck at life.

Geez! I am horrible at updating regularly...especially on weigh-in days!

Yesterday's weight: 262.4.
Gain: 2.4lb

Gosh, I suck at life.

I was feeling lighter this morning so I took my weight. 261.6 -- I'm still up 1.6lb from last Sunday. Ahh. :'( I want to cry. I'm not so sure I'll have a loss this week.

And, this coming Thursday is Thanksgiving. I'm a porker and I'll probably gain a million pounds.

Eek!! I had a major sugar attack today!!

I work at a coffee shop. I have unlimited access to all the sweet pastries, smoothies, frappes, sodas, etc. It's a horrible thing when you're craving anything and everything sugary.

I had a lemon bar.
I had a Strawberry Lemonade Freeze. A big one.

...My dinner also consisted of nacho cheese dip and a soft pretzel.

I was horrible today! Oh my!

Woot! Woot!

A new layout! I'm in love with the color purple. LOL

I used this site to create my layout. It's a template generator, but I chose my colors and made the banner and background. :) I'm so proud!!!!

Ok, that is all!
Have a good night.

I'm here for an update. Better late than never, huh?

Well, we were out of town until yesterday so I weighed in on Sunday morning before we left for southern Indiana. Scale read 260.0 -- that's a loss of 1.2 lb and that also means I've officially lost 25lbs!!! It's so exciting!!! :)

I've altered my Christmas goal a tad. I've added another 1.2 lbs to it so that I can be at 40lb lost by Christmas. So now, I have to lose 16.2 by Christmas. Think I can do it? ...We'll have to see!

...Here's the thing though. While on our mini vacation to Southern Indiana I didn't eat all too well. This morning I weighed myself and I was at 264.4...I gained 4.4lb since Sunday morning. This is horrible! I know shouldn't dwell over the numbers because weight fluctuates from day to day....and I know I have 4 days to work it off, but I'm just so mad at myself. I lost control. If I keep this up I'll never make my goal.

If I don't make my goal -- it's not the end of the world, I know this. At this point if I even come close I'll be surprised.

Monday's weigh-in: 261.2 pounds. A loss of 1 lb! You have no idea how happy I am with that! :) BMI dropped 0.1 pt to 43.5. It's still really high, but it has dropped a bit.

I have lost a total of 23.8 lb as of Monday morning. I have never started a diet and lost this much weight...I couldn't have done it without the help of the Metformin though. It's really helped my body to let some of the weight come off. I still have a long way to go, but I could have never made it to this point without it!

I would love to lose another 15lb by Christmas. It's about 7 weeks till Christmas now. Losing another 15 lb would put me at 246.2 lb...That would be amazing! I'll be adding a ticker soon to monitor my progress.

Well, I suppose that's all for now!
Loves to you all!
Emily