The ultimate fury of my dieting struggles.

2007-06-28T21:09:00.001-04:00

THIS BLOG IS CLOSED.

I HAVE OPENED A NEW BLOG AT http://lowcarbemzi.blogspot.com/. FEEL FREE TO CHECK IT OUT.

GOOD DAY.

2007-04-16T06:49:00.000-04:00

Wow, has it really been 2 months since I updated. I thank everyone for their concerns! I've just been kind of MIA for a while...guess I've been too embarrassed to show myself.

I've been losing & gaining the same 3ish lbs since I last updated. These are my current stats:

Weigh-In: 256.2
Change: +0.6 from last week
BMI: 42.6
Total lbs lost: -28.8
To goal: 11.2

I haven't been doing well at all. But today is monday & time for recommittment.

A few things have changed since I last posted...I got a new job about a month ago. It's not full-time, but I make more money on the hour & it's in the town I live in. I no longer have a 20-30 minute commute there & back. With gas prices the way they are (2.80s here in Indiana) I'll be making just as much if not more without having to fill our gas tank as often!!

I'll be finished with my other job on the 24th & until then I'll be working 2 jobs.

Also, I have decided to stop the fertility medications. It was making me crazy -- poor, poor Hubby! We did 3 rounds of the meds & it wasn't working because I wasn't O'ing. So no O = no baby = crazy Emzi. I was paying all this money to drs and on medicine when what I really needed to do was listen to God.

I prayed about it & I felt as though God was telling me that it was time to take a break. So, that's what we're doing...taking a break from all the drs & meds. We're not preventing pregnancy, but not trying to induce it with meds either. We're just waiting on God to tell us what to do next!

...I wish I could post more, but sadly I have to finish getting ready for work. Have a good day all!

2007-02-12T14:11:00.000-05:00

Weigh-In: 257.4
Change: -5.6
BMI: 42.2
Change: -1.0
Total lbs lost: 31.2
To goal: 8.8

I weighed in last week, but I didn't update. Just so you know, I had a gain of 2lb last week & I wasn't happy about that. Depressed really...

Well, this week I had success. I lost the 2lb that I gained last week & 3.6 more! A total weekly loss of 5.6lb & I am so incredibly happy about that!

I haven't been struggling w/ cravings for sugar & carbs. Although, I have eaten them, but it wasn't out of craving them. I could have not eaten the carbs, but I ate them. I don't know how to explain it.

Have a good week.

2007-01-29T10:29:00.000-05:00

Weigh-In: 257.4
Change: -2.2
BMI: 42.8
Change: -0.4
Total lbs lost: 27.6
To goal: 12.4

I started off strong last week, but by Wednesday I was slipping. I'm really surprised that I actually had a loss this week. I didn't eat horribly, but there's definitely room for improvement.

Wednesday morning I weighed in at 256.2 for the low of the week.

My nephew was born this weekend!

Elijah Nehemiah
1/26/07 11:59pm
7lb 15oz (1oz shy of an 8lber)
20 inches long
Lots of Blonde hair
Chubby little cheeks -- Just like his Daddy(my brother!)

My Hubba-Loo holding his new nephew! Doesn't he look like he was made to hold a baby!?

CLOSE UP! :)

Another pic of my Hub holding the baby...Aren't they cute?

Oh my, holding Eli just made me want a baby 100 times more. Hubby and I are working on having a baby & I'm on fertility medication, but it's just taking a lot longer than I thought it would...Not about the meds necessarily, but just for me.

Well, this is all...Hope you enjoyed the pics.

2007-01-23T23:30:00.000-05:00

Here's a run down of today's totals:

Calories: 1605
Fat: 100 (Wow! That's a lot...Don't you think??)
Carbs: 31
Fiber: 9 (I should probably eat more fiber huh?)
Protein: 137
Net Carbs: 22

I agree w/ ya Lady Atkins and Cindy! My cals were really low yesterday but today looks to be better, but I'm thinking a little bit too high...maybe? Is there really a happy medium w/ calories and low carb? Seems to me that I'm either too high or too low.

I did really well today & I am proud. Two flawless days down & hopefully a whole bunch more to come! :)

Thanks for everyone's support! I really appreciate it! :)

2007-01-22T22:55:00.000-05:00

I used Sparkpeople.com today to record my food. I was surprised to find that I ate 31 carbs just by "watching my carbs." Here are today's food intake stats:

Calories: 1000
Carbs: 31
Fiber: 7
Net Carbs: 24

How would you say I did? What do your daily intake stats look like?

2007-01-22T09:46:00.000-05:00

Weigh-In: 259.6
Change: +0.2
BMI: no change
Change: n/a
Total lbs lost: 25.4
To goal: 14.6

Small gain this week -- 0.2 lb but I can live with that. AF was here this week & I'm pretty sure that's what contributed to the tiny gain this week as well as last week.

I bought some LC bread for this week, but I'm going to limit myself to 4 pieces for the whole week. That's only 20 NC extra to spread out for the week.

For all of you LC'er out there --- How many carbs do you limit yourself per day? I'm thinking about limiting myself 30 NC. Oh, and do you guys do the net carbs or just strictly carbs?

I really need to start using Sparkpeople.com again & track my food. I think that will help w/ my carb intake. Today is the beginning of a new week...and the beginning to being more strict on myself!

2007-01-18T22:33:00.000-05:00

Oh, it definitely was "that time of month" -- explanation for the gain I suppose.

LC is going good. I'm going to try and limit my intake of LC bread. While it's LC I still end up eating 10 NC per sandwich. Yeah, LC = yummy, but still not all that great for the weight loss.

Lady Atkins had a great idea...I think I will follow & keep the loaf of bread in the freezer and only allow myself a few slices per week. Great idea!! :)

I've been craving chicken. It's wierd...I think I'll have chicken for lunch tomorrow & maybe some green beans (oh, how I love green beans!). Although, I had a bad experience w/ green beans the last time I ate them so I'm sort of apprehensive.

Let me explain...I love green beans & probably always will. I eat them a lot & they're pretty much my favorite veggie! Well, a couple of weeks ago I made myself some for lunch. They were the frozen kind & I had already had some out of the bag before and they had tasted fine. But the last time I made them...EW! I just couldn't eat them because they tasted sweetly-rotten. It was wierd...they had a slightly sweet and rotten flavor. I had to throw them out & I was sad. :'(

That's my green bean story. I know you enjoyed that.

I'm going back to the dr tomorrow. Going in for a Clomid check. Yes, Hubba-Loo and I are still trying to conceive. I was on my first round of Clomid last month, but it obviously didn't result in pregnancy. We're going to give it a-go again this month (and probably the following month and the following and the following)...LOL! I'm praying for a BFP this month!

Good news! Good news! I got news from my Mom tonight that my SIL is dialated 2 cm as of this afternoon at her doctors appointment! So, my nephew, Elijah, should be here within the next few days! I am so stinkin' excited! :) :) :) :) I'll definitely be posting pictures!! Be prepared!

Well, that is all for now. Have a good night.

2007-01-15T23:36:00.000-05:00

Weigh-In: 259.4
Change: +1.8
BMI: 43.2
Change: +0.3
Total lbs lost: 25.6
To goal: 14.4

I didn't think I did so bad last week, but I still ended up w/ a gain.

I've been feeling crampy and bloated, so maybe it's like that time of month or something.

*sigh* I've got a headache. Oh, another cold/flu thing is going around work. Two co-workers were out sick today...I sure hope I don't get sick again! I just got over my cold.

Today's food intake:

B- 4 eggs, 1/4 c onion, 1/4 c ff shredded cheddar cheese.
L- 2 slices LC bread, 2 eggs, 1 slice american cheese.
D- 2 slices LC bread, 5 slices bacon, lettuce, tomato, mayo, porkrinds, frozen peaches w/ Altern.
S- 1 slice LC bread, ~1 tbsp peanutbutter.

I've had a lot of bread today, but it only adds up to 25 net carbs for the bread. I'd say I was well under 50 net carbs today. I suppose I should do better at calculating my carbs. I'll start making it a point to do that.

Also, my boss(also happens to be the business owner) at work commented on my weight loss the other day. I hadn't seen her in awhile because she's usually working at the hospital (she's a nurse). Anywhoo -- I was in the storage room clocking in for the day & she came back there to get her coat to leave. She kinda just looked at me & was like, "Emily! Wow! How much weight have you lost? You look great!" So, I told her that I had lost about 25 lb and she said that I looked good!

That was the first time anyone has ever commented on my weight loss -- well, outside of the family and friends that I talk to about my weight loss on a regular basis. It just made me feel really good about myself! I guess that I can't really see the difference when I look in the mirror. I just see myself as the same person & I suppose I don't really notice myself shrinking (very slowly I might add).

Well, I belive this is all for now. I'm going to bed! Goodnight!

2007-01-08T11:35:00.000-05:00

Weigh-In: 257.6
Change: -5.6
BMI: 42.9
Change: -0.9
Total lbs lost: 27.4

I stuck to LC fairly well this week & I think it paid off. :) I lost the 4.6lb that I gained over the Holidays and then some! I'm very happy with that.

I bought some Healthy Life Whole Wheat bread this past week at the grocery store. It's LC and tastes great. I like it because it helps me to keep on track. I can have a couple of slices of bread w/o feeling horrible afterwards! With only 5 net carbs per slice you can't hardly beat that! :) Yuh-um!

This has been an eventful week. I've been fighting a cold for the past week and a half. And, yesterday I officially lost my voice. Although I can talk better today I still feel like crap.

We also had my SIL's baby shower Saturday. We had it at the coffee shop that I work at so I was at work for like 12 hours. It was a long day.

This is all for now. Have a good day!

2007-01-03T19:14:00.000-05:00

I weighed in this morning for my official 2007 starting weight. *Drumroll* 263.2 pounds.

Total pounds lost for the year of 2006: 18.2 pounds. That's the most weight I've ever lost in all my years of dieting. It's not a huge number, but it's a big chunk of what I need to lose.

I went grocery shopping today. Bought all the things I need for a Low Carb diet. Today is the beginning of my 2007 weight loss journey.

I have been sick for the past week so I haven't been able to start working out yet. As soon as I'm better it's back to the gym for me. I have free gym access at Hubby's work so why not work out? It doesn't cost anything extra. I just lack the motivation that I need.

Today's Menu:
B-scrambled eggs w/ cheese
L-Pork Loin Roast w/ veggies
D-TBA
S-Lt String Cheese

Happy LC'ing!

2007-01-01T00:27:00.000-05:00

Happy New Year! :)
Hope 2007 is a good year for everyone.

2006-12-18T11:22:00.000-05:00

Weigh-In: 258.6 lbs
Change: -2.4 lbs
BMI: 43.0
Change: -0.4 pt
Total lbs lost: 26.4

Only 13.6 more pounds to go until I reach my next goal weight! 245 here I come.

Anywhoo -- the LC when well last week. I didn't have much craving for bread/pasta/sugar. I'm not much of a sweets kinda gal anyway. I'm not saying that I didn't eat any "bad" carbs because I totally did, but I don't feel guilty because I didn't over eat the bad stuff. I took extra of the "good" carbs instead and just ate a little of the "bad." It makes sense to me, so if it doen't make sense to you -- sorry.

Overall, I am very pleased with this past weeks results. :) On to week 2 we go!!

<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3

In other news--medical news--the progesterone has done its job and AF fully kicked in this morning. So, CD 3-7 I'll be taking 100mg of Clomid per day and following that with a 'script of 6mg of Estrogen per day on CD 8-12. Hopefully I'll O this month and Hubby and I can get on our way with extending our family.

I really hope this works. I know it may not work the first time, but for some reason I'm feeling really positive about this situation. Normally I'm not a positive person. So, I think this is a good thing. :)

Hope everyone had a great week last week! And, here's to a good one this week! :)

Week #1 -- Day #5

2006-12-15T08:20:00.000-05:00

Anybody ever heard of the "Ziploc Omelette"? I recently saw this on Rachael Ray's talk show & thought it was pretty neat. Although, I never thought I'd actually use this recipe for myself! So, I was hungry and bored this morning (Hubby is working 1st shift instead of 2nd...not used to being home alone!) so I thought I'd give it a try.

It was amazing! So yummy! The imbedded video show the use of a gallon-sized baggie whereas I used a quart-size and I also used 3 eggs instead of 2(because I'm lc'ing it & I can do what I want! LOL). The "omelette" came out about the size of a Hot Pocket...and it's funny because it was sort of like an egg Hot Pocket. There was an outer layer of egg with all the yummy cheese and onion on the inside!

I give this recipe a big thumbs up! I'm pretty sure you could make the baggies up ahead of time (like the night before, but I wouldn't make too many up just in case the go bad, but I think a day or two in the fridge won't kill ya!). Here's the recipe:

ZIPLOC OMELETS

- Crack 2 eggs (large or extra-large) into the gallon/quart size Ziploc bag shake to combine them.
- Put out a variety of ingredients such as: cheese, ham, onion, green pepper, tomato, salsa, etc.
- Make sure to get the air out of the bag and zip it up.
- Place the bags into rolling, boiling water for exactly 13 minutes. You can usually cook 6-8 omelets in a large pot. For more, make another pot of boiling water.
- Open the bags and the omelet will roll out easily. Be prepared for everyone to be amazed.

Enjoy!

2006-12-14T01:48:00.000-05:00

An update from yesterday's doctor's appointment.

Doctor didn't have too much to say other than he doesn't know why the Met didn't work for me as in getting my pd back. The nurse gave me a shot in the hip of Progesterone, so within a week I should start my period. Then starting of CD3 I am starting a round of Clomid followed by some Estrogen pills. I'm really hoping for a BFP Hehe. But, I know that it may not happen that quickly. *sigh*

So, if after this progesterone induced period I don't get a BFP I'm suppose to go in to have a "Clomid Check" to see how the Clomid helped/reacted w/ my body. He said that if the Clomid doesn't work this time he wants to do OPK's. But, if I'm not O'ing on the Clomid then I'm definitely NOT O'ing by myself!

I just hope that after this jumpstarted period that it starts to come normally. That would be like Heaven(well, not quite, but y'know! LOL). Most women say they would give anything to get rid of their pd, but I would give anything to HAVE mine! Just so that I can feel more like a woman and normal.

I'm sure yall will be hearing more about this...So, be prepared!!!!! :) LOL

Week #1 -- Day #3

2006-12-13T10:43:00.000-05:00

Well, I can definitely say that I've gotten quite a few encouraging emails and comments! Thanks to Jimmy Moore from Livin' La Vida Low-Carb. He wrote an "article" about me on his site in which you can view here. I must say that I did take offense to a few parts of it, but then again I take offense when people try to give me compliments. To me it's like they're mocking me or making fun. After having Hubby read the article he reassured me that Mr. Moore wasn't mocking me or poking fun. I guess when people try to reach out and help I tend to put up walls and automatically assume they're out to get me.

All in all, I would just like to say thank-you to everyone who has sent me messages/comments of encouragement! It really means something. And, a special thank-you to Mr. Moore for taking the time to take a gander into my life and write something about me.

Yesterday was a pretty good day diet-wise. Didn't eat too much so in the evening I grabbed a 10-oz 100% Apple Juice and a banana. I know, sugar! sugar! but I figured this would be a better choice than a pastry. Natural sugars vs refined sugars? Um, I'll take the banana thanks.

Well, I'm off to finish getting ready for my doctor's appointment. Hope everyone is having a great day!

Week #1 -- Day #2

2006-12-12T11:29:00.000-05:00

Yesterday wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Although, I was tempted by bread and potato chips at work. You see, as I have mentioned before, I work at a coffee shop. We serve food at the shop, but it's all horrible for you! Ugh. The healthiest thing on the menu would be a salad, but salads just get boring. I'm thinking I'll have to start packing my dinner. Why not though...I can pack a way tastier meal than what I can find at the coffee shop.

I slept in late today *oops* so, I don't have time to fix anything for lunch(Hubby and I work a 2nd shift schedule). So, I just warmed up a couple of left over chicken breasts. They're kind dry, but work for what I need. LOL!

When I go grocery shopping tomorrow I'm getting some Multi-Grain Flat Out Bread. With only 8 net carbs, I can totally eat them! :) Plus, they're very yummy! I've made breakfast "burrito" wraps (scrambled egg, bacon, cheese, taco sauce) with them and OMG! they're scrumptious! Hehe. Plus, they're sort of like bread, so it's kind of like an illusion to fool your mind!!!!!

I have my Dr. appt tomorrow. Getting nervous...As I always do! I really hope he doesn't want to do anymore blood tests! Ugh...I hate needles! But, I usually do ok. I'm sure I'll have plenty to update about tomorrow.

Well, this is all for now.
Have a good day!

2006-12-11T11:03:00.000-05:00

Ok, so here's the scoop on the weight loss.

Weigh-In: 261.0 lbs
A Gain of: 0.8 lbs
BMI: 43.4
Change: 0.1 pt up
Total lbs lost: 24.0

I am stuck. I keep hovering a lb or two above and below 260. Ugh. I hate being stuck. I just want to get over this bump in the road and be gone with it.

Today I restarted my low carbness. So far so good, but I've only been up for 3 hours! LOL Also, cutting out the soda intake. I want to nix it from my life totally, but I love Diet Cherry Coke/Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi. Um, if it's diet and cherry cola -- I want to drink it!!! lol I haven't had any soda since Saturday. :)

Health update: Still no show of AF. It's been almost 4 months again since I had a cycle. I made a Dr appointment & I go in on this Wednesday (13th). So, we'll see what the Dr has to say...I'll keep you posted about that.

Well, I guess this is all for now.
Have a good day!
Emily

2006-12-05T02:16:00.000-05:00

A little late, but what's new?

Yesterday's weigh-in: 260.2lb ...a loss of 3.4lb for the week! AMAZING number for once! I feel good about that :)

BMI dropped 0.6 pt to 43.3! An over all drop of 4.2 pt since I started this weight loss journey.

Not so happy with myself health wise...My body is still acting all screwy. One day I'll be fine and then sicker than a dog the next (for no apparent reason at all). I need to call my Dr & set up an appointment, but I keep putting it off. I don't know how much more disappointment I can take...

That is all for now. I'll try to update more often.

2006-11-27T14:20:00.000-05:00

Today's weigh-in: 263.6 lb.

I totally suck at this right now. I've backslid the last two weeks with gains instead of losses. In the last two weeks I've gained 3.8lb. I am so ticked at myself right now.

The gain isn't due to AF because I haven't had her since August & who knows the next time I'll see her. That part of me is probably a lost cause...it'll probably never work properly.

The gain is due to lack of dicipline. Allowing myself to have that extra snack. Or while I'm at work allowing myself to have that Raspberry-Banana Smoothie (skim of course, but that doesn't do much for it...it's still horrible for you!) or luscioius chocolately Cocoa Royale(skim again of course, but it still doesn't do anything for that one either).

I just suck at this. Better yet I just suck at life all together.

The first of the year it's hardcore low-carb/low-fat for me! ...I have to do this! If I want to lose weight and have a baby I have to do this...I have to.

2006-11-24T12:37:00.000-05:00

I'm backing out of the Christmas challenge. How could I be so stupid to think that I could even possibly loose 15 lbs by Christmas? ...I suck at life.

2006-11-21T14:58:00.000-05:00

Geez! I am horrible at updating regularly...especially on weigh-in days!

Yesterday's weight: 262.4.
Gain: 2.4lb

Gosh, I suck at life.

2006-11-19T10:44:00.000-05:00

I was feeling lighter this morning so I took my weight. 261.6 -- I'm still up 1.6lb from last Sunday. Ahh. :'( I want to cry. I'm not so sure I'll have a loss this week.

And, this coming Thursday is Thanksgiving. I'm a porker and I'll probably gain a million pounds.

2006-11-18T23:16:00.000-05:00

Eek!! I had a major sugar attack today!!

I work at a coffee shop. I have unlimited access to all the sweet pastries, smoothies, frappes, sodas, etc. It's a horrible thing when you're craving anything and everything sugary.

I had a lemon bar.
I had a Strawberry Lemonade Freeze. A big one.

...My dinner also consisted of nacho cheese dip and a soft pretzel.

I was horrible today! Oh my!

2006-11-18T01:26:00.000-05:00

Woot! Woot!

A new layout! I'm in love with the color purple. LOL

I used this site to create my layout. It's a template generator, but I chose my colors and made the banner and background. :) I'm so proud!!!!

Ok, that is all!
Have a good night.